suminasen, michi ni mayoi mashita...

another whirlwind weekend proves successful. a friend came to visit and there was much rejoicing, but left me wondering "why can't he live in LA with the rest of us dorks?"... eh, it's better this way i guess... now i have a reason to get out of dodge.

the gift of sanity.....

bubble wrap!!
have at it.
(and don't say i never give you anything)

the best remedy for anger is delay...

so, I'm having drinks at a birthday party last weekend and hanging out with my girlfriend D... here's an excerpt from a conversation that i wish never occurred:

dvl: so what's new... are you getting ready for burningman?
d: yeah, i'm working like crazy. i'm really happy that S is going too.
dvl: yeah, you guys are going to have fun.
d: yeah, he was chatting with me today about it.
dvl: chatting? like on IM chat?
d: yeah, he chats with me almost every day.
dvl: i didn't even know he was on IM... what's his screen name?
d: *tilts her head to side and grins* he told me not to tell you.
dvl: what? seriously?
d: yeah.

girls do stuff like this to other girls to better their own pole position with a guy...
this type of catty female one-upmanship is the reason i have so few girlfriends.

thanks, D, for being the girlfriend who needs to repeat hurtful things just to make yourself feel more important. (truth be told, i am thankful that you're dumb enough to show me your cards rather than playing them close to your vest)

it's been said...

... that a friend is someone who will bail you out of jail....
but your best friend will be the one sitting next to you there
saying "that was fucking awesome!!"

not in your image...

it's a sad fact to realize that, despite all my accomplishments in my life up to this point, i'm never going to be good enough in your eyes.... i know you love me and always will, but now i see how little you must like me by the way you question and criticize all my choices in life... yet as sad as it is, it's not depressing me one bit, and it makes me feel sad for you rather than myself. i can see now that one fundamental mistake i have made in my life is making you privy to any information, because while i thought i was sharing and making you a part of things, i did not see that you were stockpiling all my faults to use as ammunition against me at a later time (for what reason other than mere criticizm for not being just like you, i still cannot figure out). i'm not afraid of life, and i won't stop it from happening out of fear that an unfavorable result might occur. i can change my life, i have changed its path in the past, and don't think for a second that i will hesitate to do things just so i can get an end result with which i am happy.... veni vedi vici.