not in your image...

it's a sad fact to realize that, despite all my accomplishments in my life up to this point, i'm never going to be good enough in your eyes.... i know you love me and always will, but now i see how little you must like me by the way you question and criticize all my choices in life... yet as sad as it is, it's not depressing me one bit, and it makes me feel sad for you rather than myself. i can see now that one fundamental mistake i have made in my life is making you privy to any information, because while i thought i was sharing and making you a part of things, i did not see that you were stockpiling all my faults to use as ammunition against me at a later time (for what reason other than mere criticizm for not being just like you, i still cannot figure out). i'm not afraid of life, and i won't stop it from happening out of fear that an unfavorable result might occur. i can change my life, i have changed its path in the past, and don't think for a second that i will hesitate to do things just so i can get an end result with which i am happy.... veni vedi vici.