*rock*--> me <--*hard place*

she obsessed about the ex a bit that night so we reverted back to teenage antics and called him... it was too loud on the line and he could not really hear me so there was no conversation and i cut it short, a bit thankful really and feeling saved from the stupidity of the situation. then i got an email, asking why i called. i had no idea he'd even realized it was me calling, but i suppose the photo evidence didn't help. so he emails me, and i responded to it blandly and thanked him for being a good sport about it. end of story. yeah right. he asked for my chat screenname and proceeded to dig a bit further for info. i told him she was not over him. he didn't want to hear it, because he's missing her quite a bit and the whiskey haze was making him feel weak. i told him to call her. he's still not ready for anything serious and doesn't want to hurt her... but confessed that if she called him he would greet her with open arms. he admits it was good when they were together but got spooked because she was moving it along too quickly, and although he wanted to be friends after the fact, that *slap* she administered sealed the deal that it was not to be. it only lasted 6 weeks total. 'call her', i said again. there's still too much pride to swallow before he can do that...

of course she knows nothing of the conversation he had with me. i wish i could tell her what he said but i don't want to give her false hope. it's hard for me not to feel disloyal for having been his sounding board. she obsesses about why he broke up with her, and if he's dating anyone, and if he blocked her from aim, and i suspect every time she attends a function she wonders if she'll run into him. it would make a huge difference in her self esteem if she knew how he felt, even if he never calls her again.... but i suspect he will eventually call her and try to be friends.